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Inspirational Quotes To Get You Through The Week (February 4, 2014)

I’m not going to say anything about this really. It’s kind of a lengthy article, but it makes a very good point. Let me just point out that your body looks exactly how God designed it to look and hating or harming yourself isn’t going to help you feel any better. Let the models be models, for their were designed to…and you, you just be you.

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Thanksgiving Owl…I Mean Turkey!

Soooooo…..Thanksgiving….my old enemy, we meet again. Here we are again, it’s this time of year. I completely dread this time of year, but I know that so so many people love it! And that’s fantastic! Don’t get me wrong, I love  it too. I absolutely LOVE Christmas and the feeling of fall and Thanksgiving. It’s an amazing feeling that you can only get from certain times. It’s the only time I ever get this unique feeling and I simply cherish it.

That being said, I hate one teeny, tiny aspect of it. (I’m sure most people love it. People are literally walking around asking if you are going to eat too much. Like….what????!?) I Hate The Eating Part. HATE IT. I find it absurd and I hate that their is an entire holiday focused on eating. Whatever happened to being thankful, truly thankful. It’s a time to be thankful for EVERYTHING that you have (food included, I guess). Everything from your family, job, food, home, friends, dogs, freedom, willingness of a person to go to an unknown country and protect a person they don’t even know, anything you can think of. I think that’s the beautiful part of Thanksgiving. That’s what I remember. That’s what I hold in my heart that day. That’s what I hope everyone else thinks of. I block out the food and the questions about college and overall irritating questions from eager but loving relatives. That’s what the day is about. 

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Second of all, my ED makes holidays like Christmas and Thanksgiving harder than they really should be, and probably way more difficult than they are for someone who doesn’t suffer from this burden. Because literally anytime I start to think that ED is gone, or less, or…a word I can’t describe. He comes creeping back in. He makes me day horrible. He makes me irritated beyond belief.  He opens up old wounds, peels off the old band-aid and allows the blood to come oozing out. He doesn’t care that it hurts. He doesn’t care that he causes pain. He DOES NOT care that this is a holiday to be happy and thankful and of celebration. Those feeling simply aren’t in his repertoire. Ed stabs you in the back, the front, the side basically anyplace he can jab his words.

“Salt in the wound like you’re laughing right at me.”

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But, this year, I’m trying something new. I’m trying to focus on all that I have to be THANKFUL for. Because there is honestly so so so very much that I have to be thankful for that quite frankly outranks and surpasses Ed. Why do I choose to burden myself with something that only causes me great pain? Well, I can’t always help that, but I can help the fact that I can channel all of my energy this holiday season into cherishing precious and few moments, and when I become overwhelmed with food and body image issues (WHICH I WILL. NO DOUBT.) I can take a breath, and remember that the people I’m choosing to celebrating with love me, and I don’t have to constantly live in anguish over what I currently look like in my clothes.

Thanking Jesus for who He is and all He does really helps my heart when Im overwhelmed.

10 Maya Angelou Quotes That'll Make You Love Life and Get Sh*t Done | Women's Health Magazine

Haters Gonna Hate

I have a few things I’ve been thinking about lately but just haven’t had the time to get on here.

  1. Miranda Lambert’s weight loss
  2. Taylor Swift new cd

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Now y’all, please, please, PLEASE don’t take what I am about to say the wrong way. I love Miranda Lambert, I do. However, in my opinion, she’s sold out. I mean, sure I guess she’s still the same old Miranda, (like I know her right?) But, speaking as someone who has eating/weight issues I feel like I have a different perspective on her weight loss. Not that she doesn’t look spectacular, but I can’t help but think she looks like a bobble head. There is a huge difference between losing weight and losing too much weight-take it from someone who knows- and I feel as if she’s in the “too much” category. I’m not going to deny her the privilege of losing weight, if she wanted to that’s her own prerogative! I think she’s happy with her end product and is proud of her accomplish, as she should be! People are going to love her regardless of whether she’s a size 4 or a size 8 or 10 or whatever. I just feel like she took it too far. But like I said, speaking as someone who constantly evaluates other’s weight appearance- I TOTALLY TOTALLY do not do that on purpose, it just happens- I just feel like it’s too much weight lost. Miranda is absolutely gorgeous, the way she was BEFORE and the way she is NOW. I’m definitely not saying she needs to change. I know there’s an extreme amount of pressure once you are in the spotlight and people are constantly picking and criticizing what you look like. I’m still going to like her and I’m still going to listen to the music she makes because I firmly believe that a person is not solely what they look like, but the type of individual they are on the inside. Okay…mini rant over.

Love this!

miranda lambert before and after weight loss

NEXT!!! Taylor Swift’s new CD, 1989 comes out in 2 WHOLE WEEKS!!!!!!!!! Everyone please brace yourself for many Taylor related posts, songs and well….my slight obsession with her. Don’t hate me.

Oh wait…”hater’s gonna hate hate hate..but I’m just gonna shake shake shake.”

Shake it off - Taylor Swift

P.S. I’m currently listening to a potential one.

Oh Joy, the VS Fashion Show is Here….

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/11/13/victorias-secret-models_n_4266776.html  (Body Makeup)

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/11/13/victorias-secret-casting_n_4266647.html  (VS Fashion Show Casting)

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/11/07/victorias-secret-angel-diet_n_1079315.html  (VS Diet)

http://www.blogilates.com/diet-2/the-victorias-secret-model-diet (Diet)

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Oh joy. It’s my favorite time of year, the Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show is here. Ugh. Blah. (Insert other annoyed words here.) I really do not care. Honestly, the whole thing just kind of upsets me. I don’t want to turn on the TV and see women walking around in their bra and underwear just kind of having everything exposed. I just don’t see why it appeals to people to see women showing “fashion” in that manner. Is it the media, women, men, or the world that makes everyone feel fine about this broadcast? I know, I know, if I don’t like it, I don’t have to watch it. Please spare me the lecture. I’m well aware of this. 

My whole problem with this show is what it’s message is to both young girls and women. Why is being so skinny that we see all the stomach muscles or the occasional rib attractive? Why is this deemed beautiful? What makes those women any more desirable than those women who are a normal weight and don’t start to starve themselves 9 days before they have a big event? On that note, who even wants to not eat solids or drink anything?! That just sounds crazy to me. 

For me, being as I have my own eating disorder, this show represents a huge Ed to me. As I see the models walk down the runway, all I can hear is Ed screaming at me. He says that those women are something that I will never be able to attain. Nothing but negative words, and negative images. Basically, I’m pretty against having women walk down the runway in their underwear and having the rest of the women in the world compared to them. Those are a specific group of women, and most women in the world don’t actually look like that. I just feel like its unfair for women to be compared to that of models. Everything in the world revolves around what we look like. We think that if we look a certain way, dress a particular way, wear are hair in the current style, or wear the smallest size in the store possible, that all of that makes a prettier or have more desire to be wanted. I just think that’s totally wrong. We are more than a size and hairstyle. We are actual people. 

Basically, screw you media, screw you modeling industry, screw you clothing sizes, and screw you ED!

 

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