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This Classroom Runs on Love, Chocolate & Diet Coke

Let’s take a peek into my diary. Let me just out rightly say what I’ve been thinking over the past week and how I’ve been feeling about some things.

Last week I did my first official “big girl job”/teacher duty thing by attending a new teacher bootcamp workshop for 2 days. It wasn’t particularly interesting…or helpful really…but I did make me feel better because I had my class rules and behavior/expectations in order when many of the other teachers at the workshop did not. *Score 1 in that column for Mrs. Powell!* Maybe the only score I sometimes feel. Being a new teacher bring me so much stress and anxiety. I think some nights I sit on my living room couch and stress about the unknown or stress about stress. Usually, when I feel these types of feelings I try to distract myself by watching some TV show or something; lately it’s been Guilt, Pretty Little Liars, Little House on the Prairie, The Middle and my newest obsession, Scandal. Jeez, it sounds like I watch a bunch of TV!

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Watching these shows usually can take me into a different world so that I don’t have to pay attention to my own for just a little bit. It takes my mind off of the anxiety of being a new teacher, worrying if I’ll have time to workout, having anxiety of the catered/provided meals that will happen my first week of inservice, worrying if my students will like me, trying to figure out how to actually be a teacher and actually function as an adult. That doesn’t mean I don’t freak out in my head almost every hour.

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Last week, I was up in my classroom. I was alone at the school. Literally nobody else was in the building. It was just me. I sat there at my desk-which is at the back of the room-and stared at the little round empty tables with the little red chairs surrounding them. I remembered the blank canvas I’d been given and how with a little help I’d transformed it into a little ranch for my students to come and learn in. I knew I was in the right place but at the moment I just felt unsure of myself. Then, I realized, everybody feels this way. Everybody feels like they are going to fail the first time they try something new. I tried to tell myself though, there will hopefully always be people around willing to let me ask questions, willing to help me, and willing to let me make mistakes and learn. My student’s won’t know that I’m a first year teacher who hasn’t the slightly clue what I’m doing. They. Won’t. Know. They won’t care! As long as I try my best to help them grow and learn and show that I care about them, that’s all that will matter to their little minds.

As I am about to embark on this new journey and chapter into my life I’ve been giving myself this pep talk a lot. I’ve also been giving myself other “talks” about my food, eating and working out. I’ve been trying to drill in my brain that I don’t always have to workout for an hour or more. I even Googled this! It has yet to stick in my head but I have a feeling with work starting….it might soon. Which is frightening. I’ve also been trying to tell myself that I am more than my body. People don’t like me because I’m skinny and they won’t dislike me or maybe even notice if it changes. People like you for you and the kind of person you are.

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Now, I can write those words and say them all day long, but I have to get myself to believe it and get myself to believe that I can eat dinner and still be a person people like. I have to believe that I will still like myself if I eat dinner.

Last thing: this is pretty personal. I decided a couple of days ago that I needed to go out to a store and by myself some new….undergarments. I’m sick and tired of having the ones I do own make me feel bad. I don’t need that kind of negativity in my life. If I’m going to try and attempt this whole “like myself, maybe workout less and eat dinner thing” I don’t need another thing on my plate myself me feel bad about myself.

I think that my diary entry basically ends here…for I have run out of rambling thoughts.

I’ve also found a whole bunch of hilarious teacher ecards on Pinterest recently. Well, my lame sense of humor and I find them hilarious.

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Thinking Out Loud 6/22

Linking up with Amanda over on Running With Spoons for thinking out loud.

Thinking-Out-Loud21. First things first! I finally finished my latest cross stitch pattern (don’t worry, I already ordered another. One could say I’m a bit obsessed.) The one I just finished was Alice in Wonderland themed. Personally, I think it’s super cute. It’s the biggest and most complex one I’ve completed so far. I’m awful proud of myself.

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I ironed it all out after this picture. 

2. I thought Pretty Little Liars was kind of uneventful this week…for being the premiere and all. Honestly, I’m not that into the show anymore, mainly because I just can’t keep track of all the characters, all the crazy random things from seasons back that seem to suddenly matter and I just can’t remember all the wacky things that have occurred over the seasons. I just forget! Quite frankly, I’m pretty ready for this show to come to an end even though I’ve enjoyed it. I’m sticking with it though!! I didn’t watch for this many years not to see this thing through to the end!

3. On the other hand, Marty and I kept seeing all the previews for the new show called Guilt on Freeform. Basically, every time we saw it we would kind of poke fun at it but I was still just a bit interested. I ended up watching the show and I’ve got to say, I’m already kind of sucked into this show. I’m pretty excited to have a brand new show to watch. I WILL NOT be watching that new Dead of Summer show though. Just no.

4. I’ve started rereading the Little House series again by Laura Ingalls Wilder. I’ve always loved these books so I just thought they would be a good summer reading project. It will also be a good way to pass the time while I wait for my new cross stitch pattern to come in the mail. (I usually don’t order them.) Anyway, the books got me thinking that maybe I should start watching the show so now I’ve got the DVR recording them whenever they come on. I feel like such an old soul. But Laura Ingalls is just so cute!

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5. Finally, on Tuesday I got to watch Finding Dory! I went with one of my friends and that movie is just too cute for words! I really did enjoy watching it. I was a bit nervous about it because Dory wasn’t exactly one of my favorite characters from the original flick. I’m glad I got to see it though 🙂 Thanks discount Tuesdays at our local Cinemark!

Have You Ever Untangled Spaghetti?

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Pretty Little Liars Season 3: Hanna Marin's Funniest Quotes [PHOTOS]:

Sounds like trying to recover from an eating disorder. Plus, it made me laugh and I just like her & that show.

After substituting all day yesterday, I’ve decided that I may not actually want to teach upper elementary every single day, i.e. 6th grade. They just about wore me out. So very much talking. Entirely too much. All in all though, it wasn’t that bad.l It was a fairly easy day. During this day I had a few spare moment…okay a bunch of spare moments…to peruse the Internet.

After what seemed like endless searching I basically just threw in the towel at the end of the day. I was searching over and over for a recovery meal plan. I would search ‘eating disorder meal plan’ and it would come up with meal plans that have too many calories for me (I’m not that underweight) or they were very forceful and harsh. I would search ‘healthy meal plan’ and apparently my terms and the world’s terms of healthy MUST differ because all that resulted in was ‘how to lose 10 pounds in a month’. Not what I’m looking for Google!!

In reality, I was just looking for some sort of meal plan that would tell me in a simple-cannot emphasize that enough here- manner how to eat. Like, a simple breakfast, easy morning and afternoon snack and a reasonable dinner. Not a meal plan to lose weight, not one to gain 10 pounds because I’m that deep into an eating disorder, not one where I’m terrified of all the foods, and not one where it seems like too much food in one meal. That seems like a lot of guidelines, but is it really that difficult to come by? Personally, I don’t see how a person can eat 1/2 a cup of oatmeal, 2 egg whites and 1/2 a grapefruit. Just sounds like an overload to me, but what do I know?

Throughout the rest of my day I found myself really really wanting to eat eggs. Like an egg sandwich. I’m such a weirdo, I know. But I’ve been wanting eggs for a few days now. However, I had to figure out a way to eat them that M wouldn’t find totally bizarre. I couldn’t just go home and make only eggs.

I cooked bacon and some biscuits for Marty, some regular ole’scrambled eggs and hash browns. I forgot how much I like hash browns.

Clearly, this is his plate. I’m not really that into bacon, plus that’s a fear food that I’m not nearly ready to approach.

I made egg whites for me and some toast…I didn’t have the best bread on hand and biscuits are a whole other ball game.

That’s my “I love eating eggs!” face.I’m not even sorry that I loved these eggs. I’d go home and make them again if M wouldn’t think that was super strange.

 

 

Last night was also the return of PRETTY LITTLE LIARS!!!!!! Yay! I know that most people might think that show is dumb, and at times yes, yes it is. But I can’t not watch, you know? I’ve invested all this time into caring about these characters and watching season after season I need to know what happens in their lives and how this series will eventually end. I’m not sure if Marty intended to watch with me, but somehow he ended up in the living room asking me questions about the people.

Poor guy didn’t know that having a wife meant having Pretty Little Liars on TV on Tuesday nights.