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Nightmares

I know that I’m not the only person that has ever had a nightmare. Now normally, I’d say that I have a tendency to have some pretty odd, off the wall dreams, but they are hardly ever actually scary. However, for two nights in a row, I had nightmares. Well, for most people they probably wouldn’t be considered a nightmare but for me, these are my literal worst nightmares.

I’ve been having eating disorder nightmares the past couple of nights. I’m not even sure why. They are pretty weird too. One of them I have kind of being chased by a cloth tape measure and the other I had passed out or was about to pass out because I hadn’t eaten enough, or something along those lines.

They weren’t very pleasant dreams, but nevertheless, they happened. Nothing like that has ever happened to me before. It was a very strange experience for me. I was really glad when I woke up the next morning and was very thankful that those were just dreams. I don’t think that I ever want either of those to come true.

Sadly this seems to be my life lately. Tired, no that's not the right term for how I feel, more like FATIGUE. I swear this disease is getting worse. At least a year ago my meds gave me energy and I could do things before I became worn out. FUCK YOU Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy!!!!!!

I’ve been having a rough time lately. But I’m only allowing myself to work out a little at a time and reminding myself that school starts again soon and I can go back in to counseling and that my goal is to be healthy. I don’t need to be a size zero. Because after all, zero is not a size.

The famous '0 is not a size' shirt :) how does she look so gorgeous so dressed down?? #unfair #luvmisssophiabush

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Fitch, Please

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I had my first appointment back after the semester break. I guess that I feel pretty good about it. I got alot of things out in the open that needed to be discussed. Eventually, I’ll get to where I need to me….maybe.

Anyways, that is NOT the point of this post. I was on the internet as usual, looking at pinterest, yahoo and some such other websites, when I ran across and article that was talking about

The 28 Most Iconic Feminist Moments of 2013 http://www.policymic.com/articles/76145/28-most-iconic-feminist-moments-of-2013

Now, I don’t really consider myself a “feminist”. I do believe that women should have equal rights of men and things along that line, so I was just really reading it for grins. But I ran across that video where Ellen Degeneres  says “Fitch, please”. She’s addressing the Abercrombie & Fitch CEO who was saying that they would no longer sell shirts over a size 10. I just found that they way she addressed the situation was lighthearted while still being serious and showing how she really felt about the situation. I really liked what she had to say when she stated “Beauty is not between a size zero and a size 8. It is not a number at all.”

REMEMBER: Zero IS NOT a Size.

Thanks Brooke Davis a.k.a. Sophia Bush 736ba8329f72485c63bc26de68657223